Monday 30 November 2009

lights at the end of the tunnel






there you go. my new blog layout for the year of 2010. i know it is a bit too early to have this blog page revamped. but then, it's never wrong to be a few steps ahead of everyone, don't we? crazyh retrofitting is my business. just what i want, what you need.

last year was derived by the preceding year which pretty much telling stories about truth, the violence and gore from truths, trust and change mechanism. we are just around the corner to end and send 2009 to it's brink and welcome 2010, a new life, fresh breath of air. indeed. next year's stories will be all about disney's happy ending kinda stories, lights, colors and happiness. God said that after every each tragedy will come goodness and lesson to learn. after each and every one despair, comes joy, evolution and rejuvenation.

am i star? perhaps not. maybe it's too much to consider myself as one. but i like to think that way. to endure and instill the positive thinking habit. positive, positive and positive. resilient. 2009 was a year of learning, comprehending the good habits. 2010 is a year of practice. a year of living the habits. for the better. sharpen the saw. we are all humans, mortals, not vampires, not werewolves. we are not that strong to sustain in a straight course. we can't shift shapes and we don't posses the ability to accentuate accelerated healing like vampires. we all sometimes strayed and astray. we need to be shepherded back to the values and principles. conscience, self control, self awareness. right or wrong. what is best for us. some says it's not always about right or wrong every time. true. compromise or being wise is something that i would relate to humility and being grounded. which is exactly what i want to be.

this year is not an exception to misery, despair, challenges, hard times. whatever you want to name them. oh yes, i've gone through them, swallowed in agony, learned openly and recovered not timely but it was enough to make a living out of it. there's no need to elaborate on them. thanks to those who helped me went through every each obstacles and pitfalls. thousand gratitudes. couldn't have done without you and yous. your love made me stronger.

so, now, let us bid farewell to gloomy tears, long faces, wasted days and just say hi to the lights. the town holds no more to see, the same faces portray no more to be, and lets not rub the wounds with salt, shall we. move on. get it on.

this year i want to introduce brighter colors. lively. positive vibes emission kinda colors. bright colors, cheerful. pink is always nice. purplish red is nice too. but the stains are always gona be there. somethings are meant to be buried and left unsaid. some people, they are trained to be defensive. they like to justify and clarify. it's like they really really need to say, to express it all. and it hurts. it is not that i am trying to be absolved from the responsibility of facing and learning from the truth but, i just don't quite understand it when some people find excuses for their decisions made. they made life changing decisions, they told the whole world that those were baked after days in the oven and suddenly they tend to use other parties' past, nightmares or weaknesses to justify. why? for me, if you have drawn the line, which segregate between black and white, and kills the grey, you should have own it, own your words like it is your life you're holding onto. when the roof caved in and the truth came out, don't whine. drop your defensive mechanism and stop being selfish.

well, i think i've said it all for a starter. not bad for an appetizer. a teaser, preferably. so, do enjoy the new blog layout, and keep reading. you might learn something from it. shit happens but love happens too.ditto!

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