2010 finally arrived

i once said to a friend of mine that there are things better left unsaid and unfortunately goodbye is one of them. i hate saying goodbyes. but good things always have their sad endings. hehe. last night i bid my sad farewell to 2009 with all the memories rekindled.

i tried to think back from day one to yesterday of what had happened and what i've gone through. man, apparently there are too many to list them down here. there were happy hours, bright moments, dark minutes, sad moments, moments of truth, wasted days, sickening days, weeks of learning, months of suffering, and of course hours of traveling. lots of them. i think by conclusion i spent almost half of the year on traveling only. hehe. what a exhausting year i had!

2009 was a year of expanding learning curves. i learned a lot last year. in many areas, i've developed myself and at some point to the very limit that i didn't expect i could have reached. every year i've set a list of targets and goals that i want to achieve within that year endeavors. this year is no different. but i want to write it down here, so that i can obliged myself to it more effectively like a self enduring contract. after few hours of thinking, i think i've came out with few goals that i want to share them here. there are few others in the list but they are too personal to be posted in a public blog post. i'm not a public enemy like johnny depp, don't get me wrong. heck it goes like these :

1. i will not bear ill thoughts toward anyone
2. i shall not fear anybody,and i shall only fear Allah
3. i will not make excuses and i will not blame others
   
4. i want to forgive myself and everybody, everytime everyday
   
5. i will bow down low and be humble despite the knowledge that i acquired
   
6. i want to hold my chin up, head high and keep smiling despite the challenges i faced
7. i shall conquer truth by truth
8. and in resisting untruth, i shall put up with all suffering
9. to say thanks in some way, every day
10. i will help others and continue helping and reaching out to others, people that i care and love the best i can, regardless
    

the list goes on and on. but i prefer to keep them to myself. i like to think that there's nothing in this world, nothing else meaningful to live and to be lived other than be good to myself and others. goodbye 2009 and hello 2010. welcome. another year of enduring, another adventure. be nice to people, be humble and keep learning. there's no end in learning. we are all an eternal student of ourselves. life is too short to be wasted.